Lost in the Clutter

Hey :) Um....here's a LITTLE bit about me! Believe me, you must be really special if you're reading this. You must be amazing if you understand it. If you talk to me about it, you're just spiffy. My name is Gabrielle. I like that my name splits in two.

Gabby:
Hey, I'm Gabby! I'm really friendly and I love giving hugs! I go to Catholic school and I get pretty good grades. I have the best friends in the world, and I'm always open for more. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what makes sense in my life. I have two passions, one that carries more weight than the other. Basketball is one, I can't really bring myself to stop. That means something, right? And music. I wouldn't be here without it. I sing, and that's truely what I want to do. Maybe one day I'll do that. I'm working on it :) . I'm thankful to God for my life. It's been hard sometimes, but who's hasn't, right?

Brielle:
Hey, hoe. I'm Brielle. Don't fuck with my friends, and I won't fuck with you, okay? Umm..I play basketball because I love it, and it's good for my figure. I sing, because I have to. Music is what got me through the hardest of times: cutting, forcing myself to learn how to stop, and those lonely times when you know there's just no one that could understand.
I need Gabby. She nourishes me, and she lets me out when I need some air. She can write and sing whatever I need to be told. But she can't sing like I can, and you have to be extremely spiffy for me to let you here me sing. I have the sweetest ass in my class :) but I let Gabby take credit. I spoil that chick so much! I take the pain for her when the worst times come. In an ugly situation, I let her sleep, and I come out. I can be destructive, or I can be powerful. Gabby's sweet and I don't want her to get fucked up, so it's my turn to shine when she can't handle the pressure. When things get hard, but she can handle it, I'm the one that makes her suck it up.
She's the cute one. I'm the hot one. She's the photographer, I'm the model. She's the singer, I'm the lyrics and the voice within. I'll explain more later, but for now, that's all you need to know.

I love you, no matter who you are.
Gabrielle ♥♥

Lost in the Clutter

I don’t know if I ever wrote about it on here, but there was a time, maybe during the summer, that I couldn’t wait for school to start. I wanted a routine and something to get my mind off of my heart.

Well, I was wrong. Yeah, I like school and the teachers and the students, but there’s nothing routine about this. I feel so lost…. Everything about me is confused.

I’m so confused, I’m loosing who I am again. I’m forgetting things about myself. I don’t know how to do anything right, I’m just going, doing the best I can. I feel like the walls are leaning on me to stand up. I probably have to write more, get more out before it implodes, but I have so much work to catch up on, since I’ve been working with Ben and my Mom.

People, there’s a difference when you’re worrying about your own shit and when you have people dependent on you while you’re still figuring out how to take care of yourself. Think about it.

i love you

gabrielle

September 23, 2009

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Lost in the Clutter