Guys, Again (and a message to muffins)

Hey :) Um....here's a LITTLE bit about me! Believe me, you must be really special if you're reading this. You must be amazing if you understand it. If you talk to me about it, you're just spiffy. My name is Gabrielle. I like that my name splits in two.

Gabby:
Hey, I'm Gabby! I'm really friendly and I love giving hugs! I go to Catholic school and I get pretty good grades. I have the best friends in the world, and I'm always open for more. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what makes sense in my life. I have two passions, one that carries more weight than the other. Basketball is one, I can't really bring myself to stop. That means something, right? And music. I wouldn't be here without it. I sing, and that's truely what I want to do. Maybe one day I'll do that. I'm working on it :) . I'm thankful to God for my life. It's been hard sometimes, but who's hasn't, right?

Brielle:
Hey, hoe. I'm Brielle. Don't fuck with my friends, and I won't fuck with you, okay? Umm..I play basketball because I love it, and it's good for my figure. I sing, because I have to. Music is what got me through the hardest of times: cutting, forcing myself to learn how to stop, and those lonely times when you know there's just no one that could understand.
I need Gabby. She nourishes me, and she lets me out when I need some air. She can write and sing whatever I need to be told. But she can't sing like I can, and you have to be extremely spiffy for me to let you here me sing. I have the sweetest ass in my class :) but I let Gabby take credit. I spoil that chick so much! I take the pain for her when the worst times come. In an ugly situation, I let her sleep, and I come out. I can be destructive, or I can be powerful. Gabby's sweet and I don't want her to get fucked up, so it's my turn to shine when she can't handle the pressure. When things get hard, but she can handle it, I'm the one that makes her suck it up.
She's the cute one. I'm the hot one. She's the photographer, I'm the model. She's the singer, I'm the lyrics and the voice within. I'll explain more later, but for now, that's all you need to know.

I love you, no matter who you are.
Gabrielle ♥♥

Guys, Again (and a message to muffins)

Are all assholes, even when they never meant to be. So ladies, DON’T be surprised when they break your heart. They probably couldn’t even help themselves. Don’t let it change how you feel about yourself, or at least try, because they will always hurt you over and over again. Until they’re man enough to want to actually get married, that’s the way it’ll stay.

Just date to have fun and “practice”, as they say, right now.

Anyway, I kind of figured out what it is I’m “looking for” in a guy. I’m a care-giver. I love taking care of anyone who will let me, even when I kind of shouldn’t be.

So I need a guy that won’t expect me to take care of him, but who will be more concerned with taking care of me. That’s where my main stress is, so that’s the one place that really needs to be tended to. So yeah, a guy to want to take care of me and not expect me to take care of him….of course that’ll probably just make me want to take care of him more, but it won’t be in a stressful way.

Am I gonna find a guy like that? I don’t know.

I doubt it.

Don’t think so.

But I’ll have fun in the meantime :)!

To my friends:

I haven’t ever forgotten about you. Don’ forget about me. After certain events in our lives, I know it’s been harder for us to stay connected. But I’m still here for you. Please, don’t forget that I’m here for you. I want to take care of you, so tell me what I can do. If you don’t know what you want to be done, if you turn to me and tell me what’s wrong, you can bet I’ll give myself a headache trying to figure it out.

I love you

and I miss you

Gabrielle

September 23, 2009

Notes

My Papercut Chronicles

Guys, Again (and a message to muffins)