September 2009
8 posts
TSOL
Because I’m tired of saying I’m lost.
I just forgot who I am.
I’m forgetting things I used to adore more than almost anything.
I’m forgetting what I want, what I worked for.
I’m forgetting myself.
I feel so lost within my own mind. Like there’s so much there, that there’s really nothing at all.
What am I? Insane? Confused? I don’t know….
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Lost in the Clutter
I don’t know if I ever wrote about it on here, but there was a time, maybe during the summer, that I couldn’t wait for school to start. I wanted a routine and something to get my mind off of my heart.
Well, I was wrong. Yeah, I like school and the teachers and the students, but there’s nothing routine about this. I feel so lost…. Everything about me is confused.
I’m...
Guys, Again (and a message to muffins)
Are all assholes, even when they never meant to be. So ladies, DON’T be surprised when they break your heart. They probably couldn’t even help themselves. Don’t let it change how you feel about yourself, or at least try, because they will always hurt you over and over again. Until they’re man enough to want to actually get married, that’s the way it’ll stay.
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Sweat
Hey, muffins and honeybuns
How is life right now? Well, there’s mixed feelings. I’m very content, very okay, and I’m trying to take the opportunity that I have right now and relax. There’s not really any drama DIRECTLY in my life, which is nice. I’m not stressed over everything. I’m worried about some things and have my mini-breakdowns, but it’s good....
Wings N Things
Coach’s son, Kole’s birthday party was today, and it was fun, I guess, but Ben was kind of invited to sleep over, but it didn’t work. Ben and my mom were arguing about it even 3 hours after the fact. That was tons of fun…..
But at least now my parents are bugging me less about isolating myself in my room. I guess now they see why I want to be in here all the time.
Sacred...
RIP Uncle Lenny
He died today.
You were so sweet
so kind and gentle.
I knew the first day we met
that I would befriend you.
Your off to the clouds
and the stars and the moon
but where you’re going
they should be glad to have you.
I love you so much
and I’ll pray for you at night.
I’ll try to take care of her
and keep things alright.
I didn’t know you long,
I didn’t see...