October 2009
8 posts
Survey I did for no good reason.
Dare you to go in detail. why’d you kissed the last person you kissed? Because I hadn’t been kissed in the longest time and I figured why not. How old will you be in 13 months? 15 What color shirt are you wearing? black Who was driving the last car you were in? my dad Who was the last person that called you? don’t remember What were you doing at 10:00 last night? don’t...
Miss American Miss
I miss my friends, how thing used to be.
LOL. I hate phrasing it that way. But things are kind of pathetic with my friends right now. I mean, Kaela doesn’t invite me to go with her to her birthday thing at Tabu on Teen Night, not that I feel special enough to have been invited, but you know, I thought we were closer than not even knowing what the other one is doing for her...
Shoot Down The Stars/ Shoot Me Down
So, how did the photo shoot go? Well, it was tons of fun. Tons of fun because of tons of worries and lots of effort. My photographer was awesome, and she was preggers. She took some really good shots of me, and she spoke to me a lot.
Looking at them, I feel like every picture I ever took of myself, either in my room or the bathroom mirror (because I loved the lighting), or on my infamous basement...
Cowardly Dogs
Is what the both of you are, huh?
lol. That’s pretty sad…..I don’t bite (no pun intended), you couldn’t face me at all??? Not even a smart coward!
To block my friend too!
And not make sure I don’t have other screen names. GEEZE. Fucking coward.
Why do I still have feelings for you?
Fucker…..I hope your having reeally good sex, because that’s what it...
September 2009
8 posts
TSOL
Because I’m tired of saying I’m lost.
I just forgot who I am.
I’m forgetting things I used to adore more than almost anything.
I’m forgetting what I want, what I worked for.
I’m forgetting myself.
I feel so lost within my own mind. Like there’s so much there, that there’s really nothing at all.
What am I? Insane? Confused? I don’t know….
...
Lost in the Clutter
I don’t know if I ever wrote about it on here, but there was a time, maybe during the summer, that I couldn’t wait for school to start. I wanted a routine and something to get my mind off of my heart.
Well, I was wrong. Yeah, I like school and the teachers and the students, but there’s nothing routine about this. I feel so lost…. Everything about me is confused.
I’m...
Guys, Again (and a message to muffins)
Are all assholes, even when they never meant to be. So ladies, DON’T be surprised when they break your heart. They probably couldn’t even help themselves. Don’t let it change how you feel about yourself, or at least try, because they will always hurt you over and over again. Until they’re man enough to want to actually get married, that’s the way it’ll stay.
...
Sweat
Hey, muffins and honeybuns
How is life right now? Well, there’s mixed feelings. I’m very content, very okay, and I’m trying to take the opportunity that I have right now and relax. There’s not really any drama DIRECTLY in my life, which is nice. I’m not stressed over everything. I’m worried about some things and have my mini-breakdowns, but it’s good....
Wings N Things
Coach’s son, Kole’s birthday party was today, and it was fun, I guess, but Ben was kind of invited to sleep over, but it didn’t work. Ben and my mom were arguing about it even 3 hours after the fact. That was tons of fun…..
But at least now my parents are bugging me less about isolating myself in my room. I guess now they see why I want to be in here all the time.
Sacred...
RIP Uncle Lenny
He died today.
You were so sweet
so kind and gentle.
I knew the first day we met
that I would befriend you.
Your off to the clouds
and the stars and the moon
but where you’re going
they should be glad to have you.
I love you so much
and I’ll pray for you at night.
I’ll try to take care of her
and keep things alright.
I didn’t know you long,
I didn’t see...
August 2009
13 posts
Off The Wall
And it’s not completely because of Courtney :)
It’s because at the game tonight (which we lost, but it was a very close game), some girl’s shoulder rammed right into the split middle of my chest and I’m starting to feel it worse now.
So I figured that I’d do something good with my time besides sit here and think of a guy.
I’m going through Michael Jackson,...
Highlights of WOW For This Week!
Hey. These are the highlights of the last entry. Since it was so long, if you don’t want to know about what happened to cause this, but you just want to know what’s going on now, read this.
with love
g♥brielle
.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:I really like Courtney,I don’t LOVE him (at least I hope not/don’t think so). But as a person, as a friend, I do. And both of those feelings...
Wow For This Week!
I’ve really neglected my blog. Sorry, I’ve been busy….
Dealing with Ben.
Growing up.
SHA stuff.
Basketball.
Improving my singing skills.
Meeting new people.
Hanging out with Jaclyn….
and Courtney and Karl.
Yeah, crazy, right?
I’ll give you the short version.
Courtney like Jackie, Jackie kinda likin Courtney, Jackie like Karl, Courtney no like Jackie,...
“what they didn’t know is I had SO MUCH SOUL and my story or not...”
– Gabrielle
“both of you are close but i can’t have neither you don’t think its...”
– Gabrielle’s aim
Swimming In A Pool Of Thoughts
I’m reading Go Ask Alice, a book I’ve heard so much about and I’m suppose to read it for school.
Well, it already has me thinking about things. The girl in the book received a long letter from this special guy she’s into. It just got me thinking….
Letters from a guy. Just cute pen-palling. How much fun would that be?
Private? Getting a sealed envelope, hiding it...
“somethin inside just don’t feel right all i know is that i wanna be held...”
– Gabrielle’s aim
Scratch My Head and Close My Eyes
Is what I find myself doing quite often.
Tonight’s been a long night, and it’s not even midnight.
FS had a blackout, but Eric’s part of town is still out. He’s locked out of his house, no contact with his parents who are out east, and is bleeding from a cut on his arm. He’s with his neighbors, Thank God. I was about to make my parents go get him, but he’s a...
“guys with terets need sex too. that is my MTV lesson of the day.”
– GabbyBrielle (sitting on her chair watching MTV, True Life)
“some things just ain’t fair. im tryin so hard to go places….but i...”
– gabbybrielle
I Gave Up On This One
I haven’t blogged in a while….
so many reasons why. Camp’s been keeping me busy and tired. When I’m not busy, I’m tired. When I am busy, I’m trying to block out how tired I am.
I blog to get my feelings down, and it feels better than a diary/journal, but I can’t sort my feelings out anymore. I can’t even write a decent song because there are so...
“you found me, i found hope, i can’t stay here so you said let’s go”
– Gabrielle’s aim status, an original
July 2009
17 posts
Floors Are Invisible
At least I’m not saying that the stars are blind :P
What I mean by “floors are invisible” is that you never truly know where you stand. No matter what trials and experiences you go through with someone, you never really know how the other person sees you, how he/she values you, things like that.
And you never really feel the exact same way about two different people.
With one,...
“It’d be easier if you still had my trust.
But now i don’t give a...”
– Gabrielle.
“New understandings come with new confusions, and with great strength comes great...”
– Gabby Brielle
“i need what i need and i won’t take anything else. call me difficult, call...”
– Gabby Brielle
Coo Coo Like the Sound Of Music
I’m glad I had these experience
because it just helped me figure something out….
it helped me decide just what I DO and DON’T want right now, which gives me more patience. Sorry for him, though. Good luck to him, and his BEST FRIENDS, hehehe….I have my own best friends :)
Ily guys.Momo, KK, Pauline, Jackie, Marvalyss, Kendall, and more.
Those were just the main kinky...
Gabrielle Needs Love
Hehe they say I need a boyfriend.
And I can’t say they’re wrong, but it’s hard for me to admit to myself. I barely remember what it’s like to be a girlfriend, to flirt with someone, to not be afraid of being close to a guy (physically).
I’d say something, but I don’t know who’s reading. It just bothers me….. I’m admitting this much now...
Black In America 2
Was really interesting. I watched the whole thing with my mom. I had another insomniatic night, but my mom came and joined me at around 4 and we had another incredibly peachy talk. I love herr :)
Anyways, all this gets me thinking about Society.
People have to really decide for themselves what is superficial and what isn’t. Random example? Say a girl doesn’t have a huge rack, and it...
Beginning To Feel Worthless (A Whole Summer)
It seems like nobody is realizing that I’ve been trapped in my house for the past two weeks, now I’m better, and the summer is half over. Apparently, I’m supposed to be working to my goals of bettering myself and preparing for my future.
So what if I’m a fun-loving social 14 year old girl? Even though it’s summer, it’s totally more important for me to clean my...
Missing Out
Is what I’m doing.
No warped
And there’s not much else I can truly bitch about. Except for….
Not hangin.
So…yeah, they both suck ass. I have plans for this weekend, though. They just suck ass, too. I’m pretty tired of the sympathy though. Maybe I’ll get to take some smex pictures tonight. You see, I’d rebel…
and make them like…actually...
Word To The Wise
Boys.
If you ever start hittin me up, thinkin I’m a certain kind of girl, or will talk to you a certain way or do certain things with you, that’s okay. Just don’t blame me for your disappointment, and when you’re disappointed, don’t stop talking. Block me completely so your ass isn’t taking up space on my buddylist.
Or, if you want to be smarter? Don’t...
***** I DO NOT OWN THIS SONG, IT IS DESTINY...
Silly.
Let me list you a basketball-full of things that I think are silly. This doesn’t mean they aren’t also beautiful, important, etc. But they are silly.
Love
Me
You
The world
The fact that I still cry over Michael Jackson
The fact that not only do guys have trouble keeping their dicks in their pants instead of promiscuous sex, but they also struggle keeping it out of random...
Friends
Talking to friends about their lives
is apparently non-existent anymore.
Maybe I don’t want to know anymore.
I don’t know.
But whatever. They tell me I’ll have new friends
by September, and I’m psyched,
but no one can replace the ones I have now.
I’m more psyched about fulfilling my deepest
fantasies :P
Hehe that’s not something I’m going to blog...
AIM is so annoying.
I’m starting to doubt myself. Something in my head just said to me, “Look! Now, you’re gonna start doing stupid things just for attention.”
And I’m thinkin’ , wow, I really don’t want that to happen.I don’t want to be that kind of girl. I mean, yeah, all girls do it, but there’s a difference between doing it and being it.
So this is what I do...
Something Odd In The Sun's Pots
Hey Lovers, Hi Haters.
I don’t know what the title to this is yet, but maybe I will by the time it’s over. Being that I’m sick at home, I’ve had a lot of stuff on my mind lately. (Prepare for a long entry today) It’s kind of difficult to do this honestly, blog, I mean. Now I kind of know who reads my blog. At first, the beauty of the blog was to have my feelings...
Hit Ups
So far, I don’t think I’ve had any all day, and it’s kind of a bummer.
There are some people that don’t really talk to me unless I talk to them first. Not that I have a problem to that, but am I not worthy to say “hey” to? Too much pride to chase the girl? Please, ya’ll chase girls like nobody’s business.
Whatever, I’m not going to do this...
Everything Happens For A Reason
And I know this now because you couldn’t take care of a girl if your life depended on it.
Wait for the future.
Haha.
ily
Gabrielle
June 2009
10 posts
A Little Less Music, A Little More Tenderness
As for my feelings towards relationships/guys/such of the sort….
Haha, wow, could I use one of those right now! I don’t have a clue where,how,or if that’s gonna happen for a long, long time.
I’m going to Sacred Heart.
I don’t know anyone.
I don’t think anyone would be interested in me.
I don’t think I know anyone that knows anyone (that I’d...
A Little More Steady, A Little Less Lovely
So a couple of good things have been going on, and as usual, a couple of not as good things have been going on. Let’s start with the good!
I’m a little more comfortable with my voice and my singing. I’m less doubtful, and I think it’s because I had a major breakthrough today! I’m always saying how I’m much better than I might seem at first, because I sing...
Changes In The Atmosphere
No, not the whole thing about “global warming” and rain.
I mean about people changing their minds due to changes in the situation……
If one analyzes a situation and develops an opinion, should one be frowned upon because the situation changed, and therefore, the opinion changed?
I have no clue, but I hope not, because I’m a very analytical and opinionated person.
I...
lmao
i love seeing how ugly i am when i sobb